Are never as easy as one would believe. Yes, I seem to have this great cosmic connection. I’m blessed (or cursed as it were) to “hear” or sense answers from the Universe and Deity. It gives the impression that I can just sit down and have a cuppa with an Energy and get endless answers. So why can’t I just sit and write a blog post whenever and wherever with these grand conversations? Because it isn’t ever that simple. Yes, I hear them at all times of the day and night when they have something to say, but I don’t just sit down and say “Hey Deity, how are you today? What shall we discuss? How’s the weather and what do you want me to share today?” Carte blanche access like that is an opening to let them have more access and control than I am willing to give. Or an opening for absolute silence and possible rejection that is scary and often unwelcome.
In being asked why I haven’t had a post to share in ages, it was suggested I just reach out and talk to Herne. He is, after all, my long standing Patron and someone I trust so he won’t try to go all power hungry and take me over right? The answer I got when I reached out was quite simply this “Just because you can, doesn’t mean you should.”
Does that mean just because I can talk to Deity, I shouldn’t always? That would be my take. I don’t want to become dependent on their advice and insight. I want to know that my mind is my own, and they are just occasional visitors coming in to say hi and share some insight. They may have answers, but it doesn’t make them the right answers.
We seek, but to seek we have to have direction. At least this is one of my guiding principles. Unless you know for certain that you want to know the answers, don’t seek them. Think it through before you ask for help because it isn’t always the help you need.
For a while now I have been stagnant with my own personal practice. Yes, I celebrated Litha with a lovely Sabbat ritual online with my Online School. But celebrations on my own? Not so much. Sabbats I try to join the online community I am part of to share energy and honor the energy that is surrounding us lbut beyond that… I’ve felt a sort of disconnect.
I know, inherently, that the time to study is coming up. That I need to get back to working on my spiritual (as well as other aspects) to find a sense of balance that I am missing. I know that another group I am part of is going to be starting up a Chakra study again. That I failed at miserably the first time it ran as a group effort because life got in the way. So it is presenting itself as another lovely option for me to learn as a group and get off my spiritual ass and grow again.
Yet something holds me back. Something makes me doubt. There are Beings I can reach out to for help. But are they truly going to guide me when even *I* am unsure of where I want to go and what I want to do? The Charge of the Goddess (popularized by Doreen Valiente) tells us that the great mystery can only be solved when we look inside first. Look within for the kernel of truth that starts it all.Deity will give us answers, will give us the answers they think we want, but how do we know they are the answers we truly need if we don’t start looking within? How do we know they are the right answers for us if we don’t internalize and explore that which we seek? We are ultimately the ones responsible for finding our own answers, and just because an answer is given, it doesn’t mean it is the best one. Answers, spirituality, and conversations are really not one size
Deity will give us answers, will give us the answers they think we want, but how do we know they are the answers we truly need if we don’t start looking within? How do we know they are the right answers for us if we don’t internalize and explore that which we seek? We are ultimately the ones responsible for finding our own answers, and just because an answer is given, it doesn’t mean it is the best one. Answers, spirituality, and conversations are really not one size fits all.
Perhaps, in this instance, the Conversation with Deity, is more to focus on what isn’t said. A reminder that even no answer is still an answer. “No right now” not just “No.” Silence is an answer. It is that gentle nudge that right now, they don’t have the answers you seek because you aren’t asking the right question or they aren’t the right one to give them. Instead of relying on others to find the answers, start with self and figure out what you want asked first. Only then can you really begin to find the answers you really need.