Changes

Something rather interesting and not totally unexpected occurred. Nammu is no longer my patron deity.

Oh, she’s been silent for some time now – days, weeks, months, years – but I’ve kept up with the offerings and the talk, despite the feelings of distance. What else can you do? She’s always been remote, asleep more than awake.

But she’s made it official now – I need to disengage and find a new patron. Which is something I’ve never done. So I’ve made a short list of what I want/need in a patron.

a. Communication! I don’t need it constantly or even daily, but far more frequently than I’ve had with Nammu.

b. Someone willing to teach me how to use my powers. I had hoped that Nammu would do that, but She had no interest in doing so.

c. Patience. He/She has to have patience. But he/she also  has to know when to nag and when to push. I’m experienced in running away, refusing, being suspicious, and checking for traps. Especially in the beginning when trust will be minimal.

I don’t know what I have to offer a deity to make it worth their while to be my patron, but I suppose if anyone chooses to accept me they will have already checked into that and decided that I’m a good investment.

I am grateful to Nammu – She was always ready to help when I asked, and even when I didn’t ask if I needed intervention She was there for me.  I am sorry that our relationship has to end. But clinging to Her would be counter-productive, and I have to move on. Figuring out how to find a new Patron will be interesting. Does one put out an advertisement? Is it like on-line dating? If anyone has any ideas I’d be happy to hear them!